Favorite Avenged Sevenfold member?
When people ask me this question, I like to answer that I don’t have one. I adore all the boys, truly and madly - though with the minor exception of Arin currently, because while I love and respect him and thank him for doing what he has done, and find him absolutely adorable, I’m just going by other people’s words about him, and haven’t been able to read / watch / etc. about him for years like I have the rest of the boys, and it will come, eventually.
Now, if you ask other people who my favorite Avenged member is, they’re probably going to tell you that it’s Jimmy. 100%. No questions asked. They will tell you that my favorite is Jimmy, and I suppose, if I believed in the notion of me having favorites, I would have to agree that the way I talk about him does seem to set him above the rest of the boys - and I suppose in a sense he is, but I wouldn’t call him my favorite.
Let me explain, before you get too confused. When I came to know of Avenged Sevenfold, which was fuck all ages ago, and I can’t fucking remember exactly when or anything - I’m pretty sure it started with hearing them on the radio and having no FUCKING clue who they were, or a friend liking them and talking about them, and just…yeah…. When I finally found out who they were, it was because I was watching Fuse, and one of their music videos came on, and it was like: Wait…I recognize this. Ooooh. Pretty boys. Granted, I was less focused on pretty boys, and more focused on the song, lyrics, and video itself, and no, I don’t remember which video it was.
That, of course, moved on to me looking up pictures of them, and becoming mildly music obsessive. In pictures, I was always drawn to Jimmy first in them. It was like, for me, he was the focal point, and then my eye just traveled to the others. Watching videos of the boys only made him more of a focal point for me, but my adoration for them all grew at about the same speed, and in similar ways.
I would take a bullet for Jimmy, but in the same speed of thought, I would take a bullet for the rest of the boys. I would put Jimmy out of his misery if it were the Zombie Apocalypse, and he were bitten, and in his last moments of coherence asked me to take his life so he could do no harm. I would do the same for any of the others, though it would break my heart to do so. Somewhere along the line, while all the boys have touched my life and my soul - while I hold desire, love, lust, want, and affection for them all - Jimmy is the only one who wormed his way to be rooted into my soul. His drum beats pulse through me when I hear them. His voice gives me the motherfucking chills, but still I would never call him my favorite. It’s not that I love him more, I just love him differently.
If Jimmy were alive today, I knew them all, and all the boys were single and available….I would love them all unconditionally, as my friends, brothers, protectors…I would desire to experience them in ways that would make even the slightest fangirl quake, but Jimmy….with him I would desperately want it to mean something special. I would desperately want to be his foREVer, and while I would enjoy it if one of the others were to want it, and would in time grow to feel for them as I do Jimmy…Jimmy’s already there. His smile…his laugh…just everything about him.
So…there you have it. Hope it makes sense to you. <3
So, I had a dream…and the only part I really remember was I had a car, but for some reason, I asked Syn. Gates and Zacky V. to drive me home. Now wait a minute before you ask why. Zacky V. was giving me a frog tattoo on my shoulder. It was simple, just a little blue frog on my shoulder, and in my dream, it didn’t hurt when he used the needles, though he didn’t properly add the color, because we were in a rush, and it started to do weird things to my skin at some point, and there were bumps that made it actually hurt, but it was like: Syn, you can’t take this car back with you. You took my car. You can’t take this back to the parlor. We’ll have to drive back to town so I can drop you off. I don’t even know, guys, I was getting a frog tattoo from Zacky, and glancing over my shoulder and checking out Syn in the driver’s seat. Was a good dream.